Somehow I find myself
standing before You
raising my filthy hands
towards your immaculate light.
My face, hands, body, and feet
are sullied by my thoughts
by my transgressions.
Each day I wallow in mire.
But my mind is deluded
I do not see the mire.
I cannot fathom
that my shower of love
is filled with the muddied waters
of wanting something in return,
a sea of ulterior motives.
For one cannot truly love
and want something in return.
This is not a lesson I have learned.
For most of us want something,
love in return, honor, friendship, or respect.
Lord, cleanse me a sinner.
Let real tears for the love of humanity
pour out from my soul
to the point that even the
soles of my feet
are purified from within.
Let me exude Your love.
A love that asks for nothing in return.
(3-8-09)
Welcome back Faith-
I’ve missed your posts at OperationMeaning, I felt real joy to see your poetry again. Yes, by all means, be yourself, as God himself is at work in you fashioning the vessel that pleases Him most. I hope you will continue to let us get a glimpse of your Orthodox faith as you live it out and celebrate life in union with Christ.
As we prepare to celebrate Pentecost, may our spirits truly be strengthened to be the people of the New Covenant in the midst of this suffering world.
John Paul Todd
e4unity.wordpress.com
Joh Paul,
Thank you for your encouraging words. I often struggle what I want to do with this blog. I go months at a time without posting. Your words have given me the desire to write again for my blog. May God bless you. -Faith